Up and down. Anxiety, at least one auto immune disorder (likely another one or two since I have like no energy fairly often), no job (see: anxiety), no friends (see: everything else), and when I stop and let the thoughts start up or if something really sets me back I spiral into a depressive hole. All and all it’s okay right now. Everything sucks but I’m making the best of it and most days are more middle ground than anything. Thankfully I live with my mom and she is supportive of me and just wants to help me find happiness (she sees it as repaying a shitty childhood). I try to not abuse her generosity so I cook for her and help her with stuff.

Last year I suffered a lot of social loss and had become extremely isolated due to it. Over the last year I’ve been trying to do more of me and found a lot more good in my life while doing that. I’m still extremely isolated outside of interacting with my mom but it doesn’t bother me like it once did. So now I do the things I want to do when I want to do them and not waste time and/or energy looking for friends, groups, etc (especially when they’ll ditch me later and destroy my life in the process, this has happened with every friend/group my entire 40 years of living).

Basically I’m doing me and it’s been really nice. I’m getting back into Warhammer 40,000 (40k), enjoying my time in World of Warcraft, and all around much happier while doing many of my previous activities like watching anime.

Seeing it again yeah lol

For me a lot of meltdowns feel like spiraling. Unable to communicate how I feel, feeling alone/separated, racing thoughts that run the gamete from anxious to depressing. Typically I want to reach out and connect to someone but I can’t and that makes it worse somehow. It’s scary to deal with especially as a lot of it feels so irrational yet it has a real impact.

Oshi no Ko S2 has been satisfying so far. This has been a really bleh season of anime overall for me. Heavy fan service and/or a step away from outright hentai will keep me from watching something and this summer has felt like a lot of fetishy stuff. And since most shows revolve around teens I just can’t watch that stuff.

I get this, but in my feet. Just have to rub the bottom of my foot on something and hope for the best. Suuuuucks.

He’s a fine kicker, but an absolute chud and I hate they gave him all that money.

Nice debunked conspiracy theories pushed by the GOP to vilify the ‘other’. I’d say try harder but you’re clearly a tool of the fascists.

Yes! Educating people on the value of Blue Jays and trying to dispell the myths about them is important. Know my mom constantly is telling coworkers and others about how the Blue Jays get a bad rap. The ones around us have a mile plus wide communication network that gets the word out about predators and food being available. Kind of cool to hear them if you’re on a walk and then see the hawk they’re chasing/warning about.

No experience with that book, but a lot of literature has autistim coded characters. Lot, well sort of, debate in the Warhammer 40k communities about a fair number of autism coded characters there. I can’t remember who all they’ve said since I avoid a lot of the conversations but if I remember right a fair number of Space Marines, and their ‘traitor’ brethren are ‘autistic’.

This sentiment always makes me laugh. We have a large family or three that live in the area and hang out on our feeder and water. They get pushed around by the morning doves, woodpeckers and sparrows. Cardinals and house finches spaz out on their own and fly off.

Reanimation is soooo good. Still have my original copy of Hybrid Theory and it’s great, but the edits on Reanimation just work really well. Meteora is good though their constant experimentation can make some stinkers.

More like slowly moved off stage while his head was fully exposed so he could do his sieg heil fist pump combo.

We’re definitely fucked. The media has done a bang up job of protecting Trump while pushing fascist talking points to make Biden look bad. Dems don’t have a candidate that would rally the base. Maybe Newsom but I doubt it. Especially this late.

Started off feeling really strong, but found myself dropping a lot of stuff. On the fence about Dedede Demons since it feels like it could be interesting or just boring bait. This season of Yuru Camp /_\ has been good. Not as strong as S1 but much more fun than S2. 7th Prince toes a line but has been fun. Jellyfish Can’t Swim is really good though maybe one or two clunky episodes. Re:Monster started off interesting but by episode 2 or 3 it was clearly an edgy self insert desire fest built on rape and ‘hur hur me MC’, so… fuck that show.

I’ve watched maybe 60 to 70% of what has aired this season and it’s been an okay season anime. Some surprises and returns to excellence (Sound! being back was nice). But also a lot of unmemorable shows that hovered around a 5 or 6.

As someone who has matched this description, still do but in different ways, forcing your idea of ‘normal’ on them isn’t going to help them. It’s more to make yourself feel better.

Life sucks. It’s not your choice how they cope with the suck. Also that you think they’ll just be able to start going on dates or whatever is laughable to me. But that’s me. I empathize with your roommate in so many ways and fully hope they pack their stuff and leave instead of putting up with your ‘good intentions’.

Yeah that’s pretty ridiculous. In the KC market the Royals (MLB) are only on Fox Sports (in some like KC specific package), Chiefs are on broadcast tv, Sporting (MLS) is only on Apple TV I think now. We have no NHL or NBA team but those are all on various cable channels and/or ESPN plus.

More and more stuff is forced onto cable (like almost all of March Madness was only on cable tv). And of course all the stuff split out onto streaming stuff. It’s such a shitshow and only getting worse.

In the Kansas City market you get one game a week and it’s a random game on Saturdays. Not really interested in the MLB but it’s so ridiculous to me that if I was I’d have to get like 3 different subscriptions. But we don’t get anything but golf, nascar, and NFL in this market on TV. And the rare NBA game around Christmas and then some of the finals stuff.

Have to make it impossible to watch like MLB, MLS, NHL or NBA.

Sorry you feel like I’m arguing with them. But people telling me to ‘go see a doctor’ when I’ve already said I don’t have any money isn’t helpful. I’m also not going into every single fine detail of my health here so a lot of the suggestions are just not going to work. Also people keep saying ‘be positive’ or whatever and I can’t make people see what I’ve said (since it was all stuff in guild/clan discords), but I’ve done the ‘positive’ thing and it ended up the same way. Though usually the positive thing ended with me feeling more alone. So yeah I’m sorry that all of the ‘long thought out helpful advice’ isn’t really helpful to me. I was ‘arguing’ with people who were clearly not reading my original post when they jumped straight to ‘go spend money on a doctor/therapist’.