I appreciate your honesty. The fact you got many upvotes confirmed my previous guess that this type of insecurity, the fear of not being loved is quite popular among Americans. Been to many global south countries and Europe, I think that sentiment was very far from facts, so many people around the world just love the American culture, at least in Obama years, and even first year of Trump I.

Now with Trump, who himself apparently has this insecurity personally and remaking America in his own image, this insecurity is being established nationally and internalized and getting reinforced.