This is depression, alcoholism; it’s getting pretty late-stage. All of this is wrong, and everything I’ve gone through insists they’re fucking Reifenstahl.
Yes, I have mentioned her twice this week. It’s because it’s germane. I’m using that word a lot more, too. It holds a certain connotation.
But that aside, I do not want 988. I want a solution, not some attempt to make me believe rich people shall be my saviors.
Well, I’d say that “not this” is quite useful and also hopeful.
From personal experience I think the biggest holes I’ve climbed out of didn’t even give that much direction. Knowing and/or wanting anything (even if it’s “not this”) is a decent start.
If you keep trying to find ways to express yourself I think that you can slowly start to raise the floor of whatever hole you’re in.
Thank you. I’ve tried a lot to raise the floor, and each time, someone starts excavation.
Since you have a good sense of “not this” I’m inclined to throw some shit at you and maybe something might stick and work out well to function as a a rebar net to get that concrete floor started so you don’t have to start all the way down every fucking time.
Before I do though I wonder if you’d like to get a small list of stuffs to check out? <– this is the actual question!
That would be very much appreciated.