I feel like the selfies are basically fake, a trick of software and good angles, I’m also kinda convicened the one st a distance in the black top is pixel camera shangeans. I feel like realstixlly the graduation one is how most people see me. I just hate how I look, and I feel awful. I almost feel like HRT hasn’t done anytging, maybe it can’t for me. Maybe male puberty just hit too hard? If I got off of HRT lost 100 pounds than started again would it see acual effects
You need therapy. This is one of many posts you’ve made about this, but I think you’re ignoring people’s advice.
There is also lots of experimentation you can do within HRT treatment itself if you want to. Different AA/GnHRa, different oestrogen intake method/dose (monitor bloods), progesterone.
There’s also surgeries if you’re desperate, but I think above all you need therapy, you need to learn to love yourself as you are. Otherwise you will just keep going round and round in this depression cycle, and nothing will get better.