• It’s a tough one, I don’t really care for blueberry but going back in time and fixing all my mistakes would make a different person, and I potentially wouldn’t have the friends I do now

  • LordAmplifier@pawb.social
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    1 year ago

    Everybody makes mistakes. It’s part of the common human experience. When you’re young, those mistakes don’t really matter in the grand scheme of things, but they might be important to you personally. As time goes on, you’ll notice that not all mistakes are created equal: some are just annoying, others don’t matter at all, and a few of them really upset you. The more mistakes you make, the clearer this hierarchy of mistakes becomes until, one day, you make a mistake and realise that this has been the biggest mistake of your life so far. Objectively, it might not be a big mistake, but at that particular moment, it is the biggest mistake that you have ever made.

    As life goes on, you keep making mistakes, and every once in a while, you might say, “Oh, this is the new biggest mistake of my life.” While these mistakes all feel significant – they are your biggest mistakes, after all –, they won’t affect your life all that much. Then, after many years, you start making new biggest mistakes that are starting to affect your life negatively. Okay, you think, I can handle this, and for a long time, you can deal with those negative effects, until you can’t. You end up making a mistake that is so big that you can’t just go on and deal with it, work on it to fix it, or try to make the best of it. All you can do when you make this new biggest mistake of your life – and it might take you a few years to realise that you even made a mistake – is sit down and cry. And although you’d become a different person if you were to go back in time and fix this mistake, you’d do it. Maybe the new reality you’d create would be worse than the one you’re leaving behind, but that’s a risk you’d be willing to take if you had the chance.