I understand. Have had something similar. Diagnosed ADHD from 29-44… never “cured” the rage. The bipolar meds help with the depression yet I am so “flat” that there’s not I enjoy anymore.
I’m curious to know how you do with Vraylar… I am having a med Checkin on Monday and asking to switch to it myself. I’ve been on geodon for almost five years now and starting to have weird side effects now.
Thanks for responding. Hope you find meds that work.
Yea, I am afraid of that “flat” feeling. I feel like so much of my creativity, excitement, friendships, happy memories in general are from hypomania. Like my defining characteristics, my “spark”, will be gone.
I get that my life is dysfunctional and the lows are debilitating, but the highs were the only time I was ever happy and I’m afraid the drugs will make me numb.
I understand. Have had something similar. Diagnosed ADHD from 29-44… never “cured” the rage. The bipolar meds help with the depression yet I am so “flat” that there’s not I enjoy anymore.
I’m curious to know how you do with Vraylar… I am having a med Checkin on Monday and asking to switch to it myself. I’ve been on geodon for almost five years now and starting to have weird side effects now.
Thanks for responding. Hope you find meds that work.
Yea, I am afraid of that “flat” feeling. I feel like so much of my creativity, excitement, friendships, happy memories in general are from hypomania. Like my defining characteristics, my “spark”, will be gone.
I get that my life is dysfunctional and the lows are debilitating, but the highs were the only time I was ever happy and I’m afraid the drugs will make me numb.
I just keep thinking, what is even the point?