Uh oh, im feeling burnt out from practicing

im so mad that you have that for a parent while i got poor stupid racist trump guy

we need another guy doing this but with a different educational quote

Just drove for 13 hours i want to die

Whatd they say lool

I had a really hard time grappling with the you cant be racist to white people because my entire experience growing up was being bullied, beat up and excluded because I was white. I swear I came up with reverse racism back in 2003 by myself because what liberal media was telling me without the additional context didnt make sense in my upbringing and small world.

Once i got into college and saw that everyone was white and that they grew up predominantly white areas the pieces of the puzzle fell in.

I think if you look at a white person and go my reddit breadtube told me to call this person a mayo cracker whiteboiii youre lame as shit. All the mayo/cum demon or whatever you guys are saying is an entirely online thing and super white itself. All of this stuff should be viewed the lense of class and power dynamic within communities. Not blanket hatred for someone who might actually agree with you/want better.

Wokey

I think thats fair, especially when its some rich suburban white kid with liberal parents telling you youre bad because youre white and they just read about it for the first time on reddit

I grew up around mostly hispanic and black people and i understood whiteness to not really mean your skin color but the culture/class dynamics. Theres people who mean your skin but theyre ignorable.

I feel like my friends and I were always some other third thing that has its foot in a lot of other things. Because we werent rednecks, we werent first gen polish immigrants nor were we middle class suburbia nor were we rich white devils. Were still white but the attachment to the label is very loose.

Getting upset about people mocking your whiteness is kind of a litmus test to see how you view the world and what youve experienced.

But also the people here who are the loudest about whiteness just found out about it, you dont have to take everyone seriously. I also find the self-flagellation kind of pathetic and for liberals.

Kamala i dont carris

I practiced for a few hours outside today feel good

:,)

I think if i didnt go to school i wouldnt be as lucky as i am in that department. It definitely is a challenge

Well, Ive had MRE though, theyre not that bad compared to the slop i normally eat, infact a lot of the shit inside MREs you can buy at a store anyway. Cheezits, peanuts, tuna, skittles just off the top of my head. Also they used to be way worse, the previous generation with the shitty 2x2 saltine cracker was dog shit

Im with my family because my grandma died and I just feel entirely alone on this planet. My dads a racist trump guy slob. My sister is highly neurotic, has zero self control and is always trying to pick fights and be ms know it all. My mom has mental issues and is way overmedicated. I cant find love here, i want to just abandon it all. I hate that I went to college and I saw how weird and fucked up my family is.

I feel like my escape (music) is not really a escape but just a reminder that I am an idiot, born to idiots and my position in life is to be white trash. I still want to keep going though, I just wish there were more people supporting me. My partner is the only good figure in my life and that scares me.

I thought MRE were designed to last for a very long time and thats why they are shit

Im driving with my sister across the country to go to my grandmas funeral. I forgot why were not super close. I’m really not excited to see any of my family, just the bits where I go do something else.

She’s very arrogant and thinks she knows everything. I dont like talking to her about music stuff because she thinks she knows what to do in my situation despite never having come up in a scene or doing music in general.

She also really quick to temper. I was wondering outloud if a place was good or not it being the only place open where we were at that night. She got defensive and righteous for it, for some reason. Like who cares if it is good or not? Were not arguing over this and you’re not going to shit on me for no reason.

I love my sister but I really wish my family was normal. The poverty was one thing but why is everyone so broken. I think about my partner and how cranky I get at night, I really need to work on it. I’m usually just tired and frustrated that I cant get more work done.

Did anyone mention the one exploding in a submarine?

When i play computer games i want to play as myself generally if i have an option or make the worst meme monster but like roleplaying as a Draconian on a vg sounds so boring to me

so tired :((( im exhausted