Interesting! That’s very comforting actually. Like how knowing how to physically defend yourself, requires you to know how people often attack.

It’s maybe… reassuring? to realize that if somebody really wanted to track down this account, they could, but they’d have to work their asses off finding scraps of data. As long as I’m using my VPN each time (and not using an OS I consider compromised like Android or Windows) there’s not many crumbs to leave, unless they go directly for the VPN servers.

Finally, I’m still self-censoring somewhat to not be targeted. Like you said, why give them a reason to notice you? I want to be around for a long time, and I’m not too keen on inflammatory comments anyway. Why give a Fed a reason to do all that digging, when you could just blend in. Comments and posts likely to get flagged aren’t going to build communism anyway. I think my way is to work diligently and quietly, first to get myself secure, and then work outwards towards mutual aid, education, and helping in any way I can.

Maybe that’s selfish, or cowardly, but I’ve been through hard times, and I want to at least have moments of peace in between the barbarity we’re subjected to. Isn’t the whole point to work together? I’ve been burnt out on two decades of putting everything on my shoulders, and I can’t do that anymore. I deeply want to help more than I do, but I can’t light myself on fire to keep a comrade warm.

It seems you have a good friend, shame I couldn’t meet them. Somebody really should tell them that doxxing fascists is against the law and is therefore wrong.

Thanks, Webfishing sounds neat. It looks like I just missed it, but that’s okay.

I’m becoming more conscious about security concerns lately, and some things are just too much effort to do securely. Sadly, Webfishing seems to be one of those things.

I’m using AirVPN and Mullvad Browser on Ubuntu, so if you have any OpSec tips or resources I’d be happy to read them! I’ve gotten a little paranoid since I worked a US MIC job (after becoming a communist, but I needed the money). I can’t believe they let me in, and the stress of being ‘found out’ for understanding how evil the empire was, along with the guilt of my participation in it as an office drone … was just too much.

Reading your experience through my personal lens:

This sounds like an emotional would. People don’t close up and shut down unless they’ve been deeply hurt. I’m just starting to heal from my neglectful childhood, and I experience much of the same. It’s hard to feel, it’s hard to sit still (because that’s when the bad feelings return, also ADHD), and it’s nigh impossible to let people in.

Thank you for opening up in this thread, seriously. Thank you for being a little bit vulnerable.

I can’t say if you’re neurodivergent, or have “just” gone through some shit. I can say that neurodivergent people are often the target of abuse and neglect.

Chiming in to say I cherish every post & comment I see you make.

Longtime lurker, but now I get to say how empowering I find your thoughts!

I’m trying to do the same thing, cutting out meat while taking stimulant medication.

I’ve found vegan protein powder and creatine help. I can’t remember if the creatine I take is ethically sourced though.

To add in, I only have positive associations toward “himbo”, and now I realize a lot of the context is negative, and I don’t want to use it anymore because it is seen as insulting, and often just is insulting.

I really appreciate those kinds of people, who I see as strong, confident, and sweet. I have always rejected the the of those people being “dumb”.

When you live a life seeing physically intimidating people as oppressive, it’s a great comfort to meet larger people who are kind.

Thanks!

I don’t know how to use any of the emotes, is there a guide or reference to look at them?

Thanks for saying hello, even though I don’t know what you said.

Makes the anniversary easy to remember

Ya know, I’ve been wondering about going “fuck it” and escaping to the promised land on an ESL visa. I don’t have good family here, but I do have a dog and a classic Miata that I care about.

It’s a weird conflict, having a vehicle that is so fun, while wishing death to cars as a means of transport. Just let me have a yearly scenic cruise or a track day, and trains the other 363 days.

Indeed it is, happy to be here, rather than hiding in the bushes with a pair of binoculars.

It’s been an odd week. I’m in my 6th month of a “sabbatical” from work. I couldn’t take my old, cushy corporate job, it was killing me inside, so I quit.

I was in a bad car wreck last year, and although I’m physically fine, I still have the car and want to rebuild it. It was special to me.

I started my sabbatical with enough money to live off of for 6 months and enough to rebuild the car. Now I just have enough money to cover rent for a while.

I’ve been dreading it, but I know it’s time to look for jobs again. I hate the idea, since even ‘cushy’ jobs have genuinely destroyed my sanity before. But, I’m glad I’m finally talking to people here. I’ve been socially isolated before the pandemic, but I want to connect with people more, and I think that’s my key for survival, whatever bullshit I have to do to make rent.

Bo Burnham’s “Intern” starts playing in the background…

Nice, thanks for sending a welcome!

Nice to hear, have a good night!

What about Anime Election posts? Vote for Naruto!

A blessing from the legendary DIrt Owl!

I’ve been watching your career with great interest.

Hay, what can ya do?

Been here all along…