is there any reason you don’t want to use kaidan for XMPP instead?

mortido really bad. i can’t continue being unmedicated.

where are the SOCKS

i literally deleted the last 5 letters off my birth name. hoping to come up with something better soon, or maybe i’ll stop worrying about the implications of calling myself samael…

internet was only up maybe for 5% of the time since thursday. google sent in like the fourth tech this morning to replace the fiber coil a second time, it’s almost 12 hours later so far so good.

but it was a real fuckin’ frustrating time being apart from my friends.

afaik coral castle didn’t purposely shutter

apparently this happened last week too, who knows

i don’t remember the week, but my weekend started out fine with some unscheduled friend gaming hangouts but last night i had a huge anxiety attack and had to cancel a game (scheduled, that i host) and i just remembered i should’ve been playing pokémon rumble this entire time (it’s rumble weekend, would’ve been my first but i can’t stream it)

i would certainly never turn up my nose at an oatmeal raisin cookie, so i will just say “correct”.

mainly i meant the “on paper” bit towards anyone with a particularly overblown hatred of men, which feels like a lot of people i know. i rebuke it.

anyway i ate some raisin toast. i always forget about nausea from hunger.

i only glanced at the threads on this situation but i’m glad to see the escape has worked/is working out. good tidings to the future.

a concept of radical feminism, feminist separatism, believes in reshaping society to separate women from men. it may sound good on paper but so much falls in the margins beyond man and woman that i don’t understand how the separation is supposed to be enforced. would i be accepted but misgendered, or would my identity be respected but i have to be ousted?

i’m just so tired of being perceived as dangerous based on (part of) my gender.

woke up to sepfem rhetoric being perpetuated by a prominent trans woman online and felt sick to my stomach so i guess i’m not eating today ✌️

i was always bi/pan but with a preference for women, but i feel like coming into transmasc(-ish) genderqueerness made me somehow “gayer” for men than before.

may i ask where you got those sweet pentagram garters?

i had this whole argument with my mom when i was like, 5, because i didn’t understand why i wasn’t a boy. i preferred boy things, i should be a boy. she was very insistent i was a girl.

my parents ended up divorcing not long after this but that was mainly prompted by mom fucking off for approximately six months.

go back in time and try to obtain some very specific birth control pills…?

i have actually looked into this before, and my state does not offer expanded medicaid, but thank you anyway

i have an informed consent clinic in mind (easily accessible by bus too since i cannot drive) but no idea how much the appointment is going to cost me and all my income anymore is from selling unwanted possessions after being denied medicaid and SSDI.

i would if it weren’t prohibitively expensive and i think i have to move out of this fuckhell state first

also it might be super difficult for me to get T regardless if i’m in a red or blue state