There’s no escaping. I don’t know what to do. My entire life’s been fucked and I’ve never been free.
I’ve spent most of my life at rock bottom stumbling in the dark. Alone, broken, and unable to find any kind of purpose. A history of being used and thrown aside. And I’m still there, but now I live for me as much as I can. Fuck everyone else cause they won’t be there for me. I’m the only one who will be there for me so I ‘do me’ and don’t care if others think I’m lazy, useless, or whatever.
I won’t say ‘tomorrow is going to be better’. But if possible maybe you can do something for you tomorrow and be ‘selfish’. Even if it’s buying some nuggets or flipping off a neighbor.
I feel like no one knows what to do. What helped me was to realize that I have survived this long, why not one more day? Maybe everrything’ll go to shit, but life is already shit, so nothing to lose, right?