people are saying such shitty things about me. ill probably delete this, but can some of my comrades just give me a pep talk if your up to in. I know logically I love this place and this is a bad day, but I cant stop crying, i do so much work going out, doing mutual aid, supporting union drives, working with the dsa and psl ect and it doesn’t fucking matter because as soon as I vent about the class of people who are giving me a hard time IM somehow stopping racial solidarity from happening. it hurts so bad and makes everything feel so pointless. i feel so disposable. im not gonna debate anyone i just want to chat with nice comrades who care. im actually crying hard over internet shit maybe its my sign to leave.

edit: THANK YOU for the out pouring of love comrade, here, in my dms, and on cytube. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH. I will be staying. I will be taking a break after this sundays fanon post (its the last one and BEST chapter hope i can see you there) but I shall return even more powerful than before. you guys are amazing thank you again to everyone committed to making this a safe space for BIPOC people to express themselves.

    • Othello [comrade/them, love/loves]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
      21·
      1 year ago

      sorry i didnt respond to your question by the way i was overwhelmed and exhausted, and you seemed good faith if naive. I dont actually hate individual white people I hate the concept of whiteness and what white people have done to me collectively as a group. I dont want to hurt white babies, i dont want to hurt anyone but the bourgeoisie. I do absolutely want remove white peoples ability to oppress anyone and that will take violence. violence is the medicine, the treatment to the illness that is white supremacy. I dont LIKE taking medicine but I want and need it. also yes when i say fuck white people I am venting, not calling for anything. im a human not a perfect political tool-thing. you seem mostly based and cool (i see you around) so i have no problem continuing this convo if you have more questions. lastly most poc in america talk like this among friends, perhaps my mistke was growing too comfortable on here.

      edit mods got ya, perhaps you weren’t good faith lol. idk i dont feel like hunting through the modlog .

      • PosadistInevitablity@lemm.eeEnglish
        10·
        1 year ago

        I appreciate the response and I feel like I understand the reasoning much better now.

        I take things too literally, and am terrible at reading tone, hence my earlier confusion.

        I should not have spoken up in ignorance and I apologize for any hurt I caused by doing so. I am blinded by my own biases and I promise I will try to break them over time.

        I did get banned but I will just do my best to learn from that experience and move on.

        • Othello [comrade/them, love/loves]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
          13·
          1 year ago

          i messaged the mods to hopefully get you unbanned. I dont think you are a bad person. also dont take this the wrong way but i thought to my self while reading your comments “this seems like an extremely sheltered white boy who doesnt understand poc humor/expression at all. eh hes seem sheltered ill respond when I have the energy”. no harm done other then moderate irritation. i hope you get unbanned and if not good luck out there maybe you can just use this account.