nabana [they/them]

Almost worth the risk of unmasking near these people.

My favorite strategy for when people ask why I’m wearing a mask is to cough (fake obv, but I try to make it somewhat believable) and tell them I currently have covid but felt like going out anyway.

It’s great because people you’re not forced to keep interacting with try to get away from you ASAP with a (hopefully) newly rediscovered and more appropriate fear of covid, and people you’re forced to keep interacting with will get indignant or angry and then you can clarify that you’re fucking with them and if they think covid is that fucking serious that they’re now mad at you, WHICH IT IS, then they should STOP FUCKING MASK SHAMING PEOPLE AND MAYBE WEAR ONE.

Nah nah, a better way to put it is “”“Holding both the contradictory beliefs and screaming endlessly in a time loop forever about how you’re going to make them face the fucking wall for their crimes but also in this one instance of a completely different situation that is unrelated in almost every fuckin way they aren’t automagically the enemy (any more than usual for being capitalist fascist pieces of shit just like yesterday when we weren’t currently at ‘active’ war) because our even worse capitalist institutions say so while the entire world gaslights you into pretending a country that was shooting LGBT people in the street for being “removed” or whatever during their most recent coup/revolution/fascist takeover is actually the “Pro-LGBT war ‘team’ that you need to support by sending direct military aid today by calling the number on your screen now, that’s 1800-RATHEOMARTIN” (despite all the articles and videos of their 2014-2020ish journalism literally being living proof against their current talking point and even popping up in the related articles for modern puff pieces about the new heroes-in-swastikas until you’re convinced you’re living in a simulation where you just loop the previous wars arguments over and over and over again every day forever.”“” is what half of being a leftist actually is.

I went through the absolute fucking song and dance and being the literal luckiest person in the world to actually get diagnosed with ADHD at roughly 30 (no dox no dox), only to find out I was diagnosed while I was in foster care as a child and they just never treated it or told me when I got kicked out into the world upon hitting the magical “we no longer care lol” age. So that was neat. Got my childhood medical records to confirm (different country, never part of the country I was diagnosed in as adult records), literally wanted to stab EVERYONE.

I cannot fathom how much harder it’d be if I was AFAB or wasn’t exceptionally lucky or had more complexity than ‘just’ ADHD.

I still drive 3 hours to see that doctor twice a year and do phone health visits the rest of the time specifically just because every other doctor I’ve met sees medication as “only necessary to make you more productive for your employer lol” and not maintaining your quality of life, gym and cooking habits, personal hygiene and social norms vs hyperfocus binges sessions, sleep routine, social interactions, etc. and I am fucking terrified of having to start from scratch.