Uhhhhhhhhh I’m going thrifting with a couple of friends in 20 mins and one of those friends offered to help me with my hair and also I finally heard back from the place I was trying to get HRT at and they’re calling me later this week to officially get me on the schedule.
It’s a good day in gender town
I stood up for myself and my gender for the first time today. A friend kept degendering me and I asked him not to.
Kind of a small thing but I feel proud of myself since I’ve always had a poor self esteem
Hell yessss congrats!
Kendrick just opened his mouth
I just want to feel like a girl. I bought a really cute hat and gloves and wore them with a sweater I got a few weeks ago and I felt adorable and I loved it. But it’s almost like the more comfortable I get with doing more and more fem things the more impatient I get, and the sadder I get that this is such a long process. And when I take the stuff off I get hit with this “oh shit yeah that’s right I have a guy body.” I don’t want to have a guy body.
The days where I feel so happy to be trans are usually followed by evenings where I wish I was cis. Like a sugar crash but for gender feelings.
In related news I’ve realized I could never turn my back on being trans. At the beginning of this journey one of the only things giving me the confidence to keep going was the realization that I could always just not be trans if I found it wasn’t for me. Fuuuuck that at this point it’s clear that if I ever try to be cis again it would destroy me.
Everything can be adequately explained by poopoo. It’s the Grand Unifying Theory of Poopoo
Just thinking about the time I was first making my lemmygrad account and they asked me what my thoughts were on trans people or something, and probably what they were wanting is some 1-2 sentence “yeah trans people are cool and based” but I couldn’t stop myself from hitting them with a several paragraph long rant about how in my ideal world gender wouldn’t exist because it’s kind of a prison, and that trans people are not only hella awesome, but understanding their lived experiences and perspectives on gender is something everyone should strive for.
Who could have known I would eventually be sitting here with a cute lil [she/her] sitting next to my username?
I can vouch for the need to spinny
I drank the first monster of my life today. Where do I pick up my trans license?
When I’m around new people who I’ve introduced myself as my chosen name to, I feel comfortable and amazing and more able to be myself. But when I’m around people I already knew before beginning this journey, I feel this weird tension and I’m not sure what to make of it.
If I were to ever look at myself in the mirror and see a pretty person, I’m not sure if I’d have the emotional bandwidth to be able to control what happened next.
Transgendertrans
Holy shit this is the best bit of all time
I love almost all of them
Omg I love those
Ugh I just misgendered myself and it sucks and now I’m conceptualizing myself as a dude which is frustrating. I want to go back :(
It took me wayyyy too long to realize why there were no new posts in the mega every time I have refreshed today
It has been way too long since I’ve blessed my existence with some Tracy Chapman, god damn. You never know what you’re missing until you have it. This girl is in heaven
I 100% would still be calling myself cis if it wasn’t for this place. I love the people here sooooo much
I would like to express interest. I keep trying to look at tracha but it really is so overwhelming. I would love a sort of tracha-lite if it was manageable