Spent the last two years basically wasted. Surprisingly have moved up a lot in my life in that time, something to be said about the functional alcoholic.

I’m making this post because I feel like fucking hell, and I’m tired and it’s like every good feeling has been replaced by dog shit.

But I’m not like craving booze right now and so I guess I’m sort of not dependent on it at the moment. I’ve been active too, going to shows and parties and such. They’ve been dramatically less fun, but at least I’m not holed up and away from society like every other time I’ve tried to get off the sauce.

That’s nifty.

Probably will have a drink sometime soon, whatever. Just nice to prove I don’t actually HAVE to drink I guess.

  • Grandpa_garbagio [he/him]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
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    18 hours ago

    yeah I kept running into the I’m not really having very much fun, I’m just sort of trashed for the hell of it wall a lot recently

    If I was having fun I doubt I’d even have really given this the attempt lol

    • SoylentSnake [he/him, they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
      5·
      18 hours ago

      yeah fair. for me, even when i’m not Having A Blast, i still find it to be a comfort around my loneliness-anxiety and evening sitting-around-in-my-apartment claustrophobia. idk, there’s a very specific feeling i’m seeking to quell. hard to put it into words exactly. (in my megathread post just now and in other times past i’ve called it The Gnawing)