Children of Time is a 2015 science fiction novel by Adrian Tchaikovsky.
In the distant future, humanity seeks to create new habitats for itself on distant planets, terraforming them and seeding them with life. Dr. Avrana Kern is heading one such project, orbiting the tentatively named “Kern’s World”, where the plan is to release monkeys 
infected with a nanovirus that will accelerate their evolution. Through an act of sabotage from an anti-technology group that has also destroyed much of Earth, the monkeys are never released, and the virus instead infects a species of spider, Portia labiata. The book follows the evolution of the spiders and their eventual civilisation, as well as a remnant of humanity that fled to Kern’s World hoping to find paradise.
also children of ruin and children of memory, the sequels, are really good
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buying the cheapest men’s shaving gel instead of the same thing in a pink box and double the price from the woman’s aisle
Met an autistic trans girl who programs for a railway company
alcohol
Fucked up rn but felt kinda weird about “ze/hir” lately despite them being rad asf pronouns imho
Think I’m still mostly a “they/them” but being a “she/her” trans femme on occasion mite b cool
You know, just to cement the “lol definitely not a guy” feeling home
Or fuck, could I possibly be a binary trans woman instead of a weird enby that I’ve been living as for like a decade now???
Fuck idk
Idk maybe refer to me with she/her for awhile and I’m seeing if that’s actually right or not, sorry
Like I came out gender wise as a trans woman initially a long time ago, then felt more comfortable being nonbinary, and I guess now I’ve kinda done full circle?
I dunno
I’m queer
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and my junk is small
Finally gonna go to my GP today and ask for a referal to a transgender clinic. I’m so excited/nervous I couldn’t even sleep.
lmfao rest in piss anita bryant
Lord help me quit TikTok. I’m so tired of the weird prescriptivism that invades queer discourse there. And what happened to the trans prime directive? Every single video with someone saying eggy shit is full of comments just telling that person they’re trans and to start hormones. And it understandably freaks people out. It’s the same 3 egg jokes over and over and the person gets absolutely no support because people are too busy making inside jokes. Not to mention everyone jumping straight to the person being not only trans, but binary trans.
very mild injury mention
rediscovering the joy of model making (accidentally knifing myself when my hand slips while struggling to do a conversion i thought was gonna be fun and easy)
don’t worry the glue on my fingers sealed the cut up immediately -_-;
spoiler drug
THIS DRUNK KNOWS HOW TO REMEMBER TO USE SPOILER TAGS. WHAT IS YOUR EXCUSE
GIVE ME 10 PUSHUPS
I decided to check up on r/MTF, which I haven’t done in a long time. Unsurprisingly, that sub is still as embarrassingly lib as it ever was. More so than most other trans subs. They’re still unable to connect the dots, and constantly making excuses for democrats, and acting like they’re protectors of trans rights while they’ve actually shown that they do not care. Now I remember why I stopped visiting that place years ago. I have little patience for this lib shit.
A thrift store near me is doing a sale where a ton of the stuff there is 80% off and the rest is 25% off so I might be taking home a giant haul
i thought i was really gonna miss having gargantuan pockets when i moved to more femme clothing, but honestly i love having a silly little handbag so much.
do any trans people listen to The Front Bottoms
depression/dysphoria/dooming
I’ve been crying all day. It hurts so much. I could barely talk earlier. So dysphoric about my voice. Just in general too.
I keep doing worse and worse. I’ve been “trying” (half assed and lazily) to get my shit together for years. Haven’t been able to. I’m doing worse now. So how am I going to be able to now when I couldn’t then.
I can’t start hrt because I can’t get better. I can’t get better because I’m trapped in a disgusting man body with a disgusting man voice. There’s nothing to do. I can’t force myself to get better. To work on myself, to voice train, none of it. I can’t. I never really could. Not quitting if I never tried.
I have failed life. So many things I will never get to see or experience. Because I’m a failure. All evidence points to me just being born wrong. Defective. Whatever ig. What makes a person turn out like this. I can’t blame my parents. They tried. I wish I tried harder. Whatever. Hurts too much. What a shame. Not good enough to even try. I am such a disgusting waste of life. I wish I could give this to someone else.
Hey, from one severely struggling queer trans commie weirdo to another, I know it sucks ass and unbearably hurts sometimes but I genuinely love you as much as an internet rando can, please be safe and kind to yourself
spoiler
I’ve been “trying” (half assed and lazily) to get my shit together for years. Haven’t been able to. I’m doing worse now. So how am I going to be able to now when I couldn’t then.
fuckkkkkk
Yeah, also where I’m at now
Pls reach out if you want
We’re gonna get better I swear
or else
Just wanted to say you’re not alone, I always upvote your posts when I see them but I don’t always reply because I don’t know what to say since I struggle many of the same thoughts and feelings as well.
I can’t start hrt because I can’t get better
CW: alcoholism
I feel this so much, I might be able to start HRT soon but the closer I get to the day where they do blood tests to make sure my health is in order, the more I feel like my health is too fucked from years of general neglect and alcoholism. I tried to quit a while back, and managed a little over a month sober, but relapsed in November. I’m trying to commit to staying sober until then (I’ve at least managed to have some sober days in the last couple weeks, as opposed to near zero for most of my adult life), but I know it’s too little, too late.
silly but positive, kinda gender euphoria
I still only play games on my old 360 lol but I updated my avatar awhile ago and it’s stupid but it really made me happy
The old one was my awkward teenage egg self
Now I have tits and a MJOLNIR helmet that matches my Reach Spartan and it’s sick imho
